For years I fought God. (Sometimes, I still unintentionally do) Yes, I was in church but church wasn’t in me. I could recite scriptures but I was still in a place of suffering. I was faithful to worship but I wasn’t worshipping and the truth is, I didn’t know how because I was wounded. Somewhere on this journey, I was wounded by church. Maybe it was due to being tired of traditions, overlooked because of the gender I was born with, overworked but undervalued. Whatever it was, I was in worship with open wounds. Then God called me, He chose me and He set me apart and I knew things had to change. So, I said YES to grace and I said YES to God.
Did it mean all my suffering would end? No, sometimes the weight feels even heavier now but it was God intentionally lengthening my journey because He needs me capable of handling destiny. The days when funds are low, they’re preparing me for destiny. The nights of not being able to sleep, preparation for destiny. Being talked about, preparation for destiny. The unextended invitations, preparation for destiny. Those nights I stayed up pacing, God was preparing me for the nights I now stay up to pray. Those days I wanted to give up, God was preparing me to now stand in the gap for those who seek encouragement from me on the days it’s you who wants to throw it in. Those times we suffered in marriage, God was preparing me to tell you how to push through in yours. Those times we suffer financially prepare us to now help somebody else survive.
I shared this because you need to know … God isn’t making you suffer intentionally, He’s intentionally lengthening your journey because He needs you ready when you get to destiny. Understand, you may be walking in your destiny now but it doesn’t mean you’ve reached the part where it pays better, the stress isn’t so heavy, your money ain’t funny or etc. Truth is, God needs you prepared to handle everything that comes with destiny. See, when you reach the platform of true destiny; the pain, the problems, the people, the purpose AND the paychecks are different (increase). If you can’t handle being talked about, lied on, overlooked, underpaid and tired on this level; you sure in heaven, won’t make it in destiny.