Daily Devotional – 10/6/16 “What’s your reality?”


Why do we spend so much time trying to prove our happiness to people, who probably don’t care anyway, yet we spend no time building a foundation of hope in God. Why do we work so hard to show devotion to people, who will let you down but has yet to be devoted to the God of infinite chances? Why do we have to put up a front just to be accepted yet we won’t fight for the Father? I’m only asking because I’m curious to know. Think about it. We get so wrapped up in what people think of us that we’ll spend the majority of our time ensuring we ‘post’ better than how we actually live. A person will spend time taking thirty selfies just to get the right one to share. You’ll portray to the world your happiness but in the confines of your home you can’t eat for drinking tears. Always smiling yet dying spiritually. Consistently posting your happy life when it’s far from the truth. In reality, you’re living with a monster but you don’t want the world to know you messed up in YOUR choosing. In reality, you’re one missed check from being homeless but you put up a bold front to keep up with ‘them.’ In reality, your pillow is actually a sponge, soaking up the many nights of tears you’ve cried just to go to sleep. In reality, if your walls could talk. In reality, if the inside of your car could tell the truth. In reality, you’re one pill away from suicide because depression has depressed your faith. Scared to really live because then you’d have to own up to who you really are. Scared to step out of the shadow of your momma because it may break her heart. Scared to live in your truth because somebody may not be able to accept it.

But baby, how’s that working for you? When will you come out of that prison of bondage? When will you take off the mask in order for us to meet the real you? When will you own your truth? Yes, it’s hard but aren’t you tired of running, hiding and being a fraud? Aren’t you tired of painting the picture morning after morning only to have to remove it night after night? Ask yourself this question and then answer it truthfully. What is your reality? In my reality, I am who I am because I know whose I am. I’m a preacher who isn’t accepted by everybody (that doesn’t bother me), a wife whose marriage wasn’t always good, a mother with children who disappoint me occasionally, an adult who took years to build decent credit, from a large dysfunctional family that’ll fight and then eat together in the same hour, a girl who still sometimes curse but will shut down when mad, one whose feelings get hurt easily but you wouldn’t know it, I have tattoos (and want more), I love shoes but don’t like to shop, I’ll give you my last without wanting anything in return, I’m a thick, confident chic though some say it’s cockiness and I love the Lord with my whole heart and I’ll tell a dying world. Yes, I have flaws, plenty of them but they don’t determine who I am. I have a past yet it doesn’t stop who I am now. This is my reality, what’s yours?


Daily Devotional – 9/19/16 “9/19/16 – Oh change … “

Change comes with or without warning and believe this or not, you have to (sometimes) accept it or not. When I say sometimes, I mean that there are times you will have no choice but to choose the change. It’s like death. We have to accept the change that comes with the passing of a loved one, whether we want to or not; it’s a part of life. But when it comes to things like jobs and such, you can make the choice to accept the change by either staying or going; again, your choice. It’s like here at my job, we had a change to our management team. Although I’ve only been in this department for a year, from what I can gather, it is a welcome change. However, I’ve come to realize and understand this … WE can make change hard by complaining and being unacceptable to it. Think about it. A lot of parishioners within a certain place of worship can make the assignment for a new pastor hell (and we know it). It’s because we’ve been accustom to the old pastor who has been there thirty years letting us get our way so when new leadership comes in, we don’t know how to respond. And instead of getting to know him or her, we cause hell, raise hell, sell hell, support hell and sometimes tell them to go to hell. All because WE don’t like it.

But baby, haven’t you realized by now that the world doesn’t revolve around you and your way of thinking? Don’t you understand that with every season, you’ve got to change to accommodate it? Yea, you know this but you’re being stubborn. I mean, you wouldn’t wear summer clothes in the winter neither will you wear winter clothes in the summer. You adapt to the change. So, why is this so hard for Christians? Now, this isn’t just for worship places because it fits your life too because your parenting style changes as your child(ren) grow. Your household changes as things evolve within your life. We even tend to change as life happens. You hair goes from the natural color to gray. You may gain or lose weight. You may hurt a little more than you used too in parts you didn’t even know you had. Your eyesight may require some help and you may not get around as fast as before. But this is all a sign of change. Not bad change but good change. And we have to change with it. Otherwise we stay stuck in a place that no longer fits with where you are. We cannot stay in the same place forever because eventually we’ll have to change. Not because we have too but because we need too. Change, when it comes from a great place, has great outcomes. You simply need to be ready and willing to accept it and this comes by the continual renewing of your mind.

“Don’t copy the behavior and customs of this world, but let God transform you into a new person by changing the way you think. Then you will learn to know God’s will for you, which is good and pleasing and perfect.” – Romans 12:2