I’ve started writing this devotional three times and I’ve started over each time. Just when I thought I had it together, it wouldn’t flow right. “Get it together girl!” I’m being transparent because I need each of you to see that I am human in this thang. This spiritual journey is hard and I am struggling. Will I give up? No but it doesn’t take away the fact that I am struggling. I’m not struggling with the calling of ministry that God has placed over my life but I am struggling with what I should be doing. And the enemy is trying his best to get in but he doesn’t stand a chance. Don’t get this thang twisted! I may be struggling but I am not stranded. I told you on yesterday that I am being remodeled and it’s going to take some time so again, you’re going to have to pardon the mess you may see. I’ve been so frustrated lately and I can’t seem to grasp why but then it dawned on me, just now, that this isn’t even about me. That’s why I’m struggling. God says I’m struggling because it’s not even mine to figure out. HA! Ok God. Didn’t God tell me on yesterday to trust Him through my remodeling process? How can I tell you to trust God when it seems like my trust is wavering?
So, let me start this over for all of us! We are still in our remodeling phase because it doesn’t happen overnight, so why are we rushing it? Who said it would be easy? Sickness isn’t cured overnight? Antibiotics are usually given for ten days and the doctor says, even if you feel better after a few days continue to take the medicine for the full ten days to make sure the sickness is completely gone; right? Then why am I rushing this phase of my life? Can’t you hear the work being done? Excuse the noise; you’ll appreciate the work afterwards. Pardon all the mess, there is some renovations being made on the inside of this old body of mine. I could be out of commission, down and out and not worth being remodeled yet God saw fit to pay the price so here I am! And if you happen to see a few tears stream down, that’s just water being used to flush out the waste that had been caught up in there. So, when I started writing I was struggling but now I am satisfied and I will wait until my remodeling process is complete to see what God has in store for me. What about you?
“And He has said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for power is perfected in weakness.” Most gladly, therefore, I will rather boast about my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may dwell in me.” 2 Corinthians 12:9