Daily Devotional – 10/23/19 “God took a chance”

The last few months, I’ve been intentional about my prayer life. In the mornings, instead of grabbing my phone, I sit in fellowship with God. Before my feet hit the floor, I thank God and then I ask Him to set the order of my day. This morning was no different but I felt different because I have a deeper appreciation for what God has allowed, in my life. This is why, my words to Him this morning were “God, thank you for taking a chance on me.” See, I always took for granted God’s need of me. When the truth of the matter is, He doesn’t yet He took a chance on me.

When I was being selfish, mean, angry, bitter, sinful and all the other words to describe my mess; God was still willing to take a chance on me. When I wasn’t fitting to live but fearful of dying, God was stilling willing to take a chance on me. When I was ignoring Him and blatantly disrespecting this vessel He created; He was still waiting to take a chance on me. When I was acting holy, playing church every Sunday, knee deep in sin and halfway repenting; He still took a chance on me. Y’all this thang hit differently when you come to understand that God doesn’t need us, not when He can make rocks cry out and donkeys talk; yet He takes a chance on us. There’s an old gospel song that says, “He chose me, out of all that He could have used, He chose me.” Is that great news to anybody other than me? Is there anybody else who’s grateful to God for choosing us, to use?

Even with assignments that aggravate us, blessings that burden us, circumstances that confuse us, detours that distract us, evilness that engulfs us, fights that frustrates us, grievances that gird us, hurt that hinder us, injustices that infuriates us, jealousies we’re judged by, kicks that knock us down, longsuffering we labor with, mishandlings in ministry, nosey instigators, oppositions, persecutions, questions, restlessness, sacrifices, trouble and troublemakers, ungodliness, valleys and vexes, weaknesses and yokes (There’s no x or z, stop looking) … God still deems us worthy enough of being chosen to handle them all.

So, press through the spiritual abuse we sometimes have to suffer, the valleys we sometimes fall victim too because God took a chance on you. And because He did, there’s an even greater chance of you surviving. How do I know? Because God gives us chance after chance, every time and if He didn’t believe in us; He’s given up by now. When it gets hard, remember this … God took a chance on you. #tryagain #Goddid

Daily Devotional – 9/23/19 “IT’S TIME!”

As I prepared to blog, this morning, I open Facebook, to see a post from my cousin. Her words said, “I couldn’t heal because I kept pretending, I wasn’t hurt! I’m no longer pretending!” Baby, if this won’t preach. Let me tell y’all something … you better open your mouth. You’re walking around dressed up, acting like you’re good when truthfully, you’re bleeding under your clothes. You get up, earlier, every day, to make sure your wounds and scars are covered because, God forbid, somebody finds out you’re human. You don’t want folk to know your relationship is really a situationship. You don’t want nobody to know, you’ve been a victim of abuse, low self-esteem, depression, suicidal thoughts, attempted suicide, broken promises, daddy issues and/or being taken advantage of by men or women. You sleep around because you’re afraid of being alone. Your words are harsh because you try to hurt folk before they hurt you, again. Beloved, you can’t heal because you keep pretending you aren’t hurt. Who are you?

There were times I’d be afraid of people knowing, the real me. Not anymore. I am, who I am and if you don’t know, let me tell you. My name is Lakisha Dionne Rucker Bloodworth Johnson. I used to be angry at our dead-beat dad who changed our last name but never took the time to raise us. I used to have bad credit, living paycheck to paycheck while robbing Peter to pay Paul, check advances, title loan, bankruptcy; all while serving in God’s house. I’ve been married for 21 years but it ain’t been all good, cause at one point he didn’t like me, and I couldn’t stand him, and it caused us both to be unfaithful and unhappy. I can go on, but the point is, I’ve made a lot of mistakes and I had to confess some stuff to be cleansed of it.

And somebody reading this, it’s time you owned your truth, too or you’ll dread opening your eyes, every morning, for having to fight another day with your present circumstances knocking the life out of you. Yea, I know, you’ve always been the strong one and now you’re too ashamed to show weakness because you think it might stain your image. You’ve been the encourager, for so long, that you don’t even recognize your need for encouragement. You’re always the one helping that you’ve yet to see it’s you who is now in need. You’re always the one feeding folk (physically and spiritually) that you can’t even hear your own stomach growling for nourishment. IT’S TIME … time for you to stop pretending and IT’S TIME … time you get healed.