In September, I said I would not shop until after the first of the New Year, mainly for shoes (I love shoes). For the most part, I’ve done it. I didn’t say this because I couldn’t buy shoes but the reality is, I didn’t need to. My main focus is to eliminate debt in our household. I have a two-year plan to get rid of as many bills as I can. Yet, would you believe it seemed like the less I spent, the less I had? It’s crazy. I could not figure out why it seemed to get heavier instead of lighter. So I begin to fast and pray, more. I began to trust God more. I surrendered, for real because I understood that something was happening way bigger than me. This morning, while reading Deuteronomy 8, a passage titled, “A call to remember and obey,” God spoke to me and said read Deuteronomy 8:2, “Remember how the Lord your God led you through the wilderness for these forty years, humbling you and testing you to prove your character, and to find out whether or not you would obey his commands.” This might not make your belly leap but y’all I turned 40 this year! As I read, tears begin to swell in my eyes because God reminded me of my last 40 years in the wilderness. He said, your wilderness was my test but you do remember that your clothes and shoes didn’t wear out, you may not have eaten what you wanted but you weren’t hungry and although you were in the wilderness, you were never alone.
Y’all!!! God told me, because you’ve obeyed my commands and walked in my ways, I’m about to thrust you into a place where your land will be overflowing, food will be plentiful and you’ll lack for nothing. Understand me, I haven’t been perfect and some days were hard for me to stand but I pushed through. Many mornings I didn’t feel like encouraging anybody, let alone myself, but I did. Some days I didn’t feel like being holy but I held on. Some days, I had to preach even though it felt like I was being punished. Some days I had to act like I had it together when the truth be told, the wilderness was kicking my butt. But this morning, God told me, it was necessary. (I just preached on this yesterday.) It was necessary in order for me to appreciate the overflow I am about to step into. My wilderness, for 40 years, was necessary so that I didn’t forget it when I walk into my new place, so that I don’t become proud but I stay prayerful, so that I don’t take the credit but remember I am chosen. It was necessary as to not forget whose mantel I carry, message I preach and whose purpose I must fulfill. And for somebody reading this, you too have to experience the wilderness but there is hope. For Deuteronomy 8:18 says, “Remember the Lord your God. He is the one who gives you power to be successful, in order to fulfill the covenant he confirmed to your ancestors with an oath.” After the wilderness is God’s promise of prosperity. It’s coming beloved but I need you to hold on! It doesn’t feel good but it is necessary in order that you might receive.