There used to be a time I would spend my lunch renewing check advances, a title loan and juggling bills. Sitting in my car, afterwards, with no appetite because the harsh reality was, we were in over our heads and there really wasn’t much left to spare. No, we weren’t trying to outdo anybody but life happened and it happened fast. We bought our first house young and it was a rip off, so after ten years, we decided to give it back to the bank. Then we moved into an apartment that we would pay more for than it was worth. We were in over our heads. Oh but then God snatched me and got me together and if I can be honest, I was glad because I was tired of running from Him. I was sick of sitting in worship acting like my praise was real when it wasn’t. I was tired and when I admitted it, suddenly things changed. I didn’t get a seven-figure a year job, I was still at the same one I had. I didn’t hit the lottery but I came into an inheritance and God was the investor. I learned how to be obedient. Understand when I write this … Obedience doesn’t take away suffering, pain, heartache, sickness and enemies but the bible says in Isaiah 1:19-20, “If you are willing and obedient, you shall eat the good of the land; but if you refuse and rebel, you shall be eaten by the sword; for the mouth of the LORD has spoken.”
I share this for somebody who woke up, fed up and tired because no matter what you do or how you pray, you cannot seem to make it work. Well, what area of your life are you being disobedient in? Take a reflective look and be honest with yourself and then be willing to change. Yes, I know you’ve been handling it on your own but how has that worked for you, so far? Look, I’m not saying every day since, for us, have been all great, they haven’t. There are times I still try to fix it but then I remind myself that God did it before, He’ll do it again. I get it, your checking account may be low before, between and after pay periods yet God still provides. You may not have a mansion or three overly priced cars in the garage yet God is still able but you’ve got to trust in His promise. Stop taking matters into your own hands. Stop going into debt for things you can do without. Say no, sometimes. Sit your tail down and stay home, some nights. Skip the beauty shop and nail salon, some weeks. Put your life into perspective, stop being mad at God and start being obedient and see if your life doesn’t change.