The reason you aren’t getting the blessing you’re standing in the need of is because you’re standing in your own way. Yea, you go before God, petitioning His throne with prayer yet in your heart you’ve already counted yourself out. Baby, if you don’t believe in yourself, who will? It’s almost like me fighting to prove you’re innocent when you’re walking around with a guilty sign tied around your neck. When will you believe in yourself? Let me tell you this, it says a lot for God to call your name when there are a million others just like you. It says a lot for God to choose you when He could have easily picked the person next to you. It didn’t have to be you that God ordained but He did. He didn’t have to be you God chose but He did. It didn’t even have to be you He gave that vision but He did and He made it plain just for you. Yet you’re second guessing and doubting. Even the trials you’re facing, you were chosen for that too. Read your bible. God chose Job because He knew Job’s faith would stand because God had faith in Job. Now think about what you’re going through. Why do you think God chose you? He didn’t do it because He wanted to pick you out to penalize you because of your past yet He pointed you out to position your purpose. (“I knew you before I formed you in your mother’s womb.” Jeremiah 1:5) God hasn’t chosen you for that sickness because He needs folk to see you struggling yet He needs those who doubt His healing to see it manifested through you. God hasn’t chosen you to struggle through the daily strains of life just because He felt like it but He did it simply to show folk who doubt the ability of His strength to see if revealed through a regular person like you who make it look easy. God didn’t choose you to Pastor that church because He wanted you to walk about in defeat like others before yet He chose you because He wanted the naysayers to see His work being done and it could only be done through you. (For I know the plans I have for you,” says the LORD. “They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope. Jeremiah 29:11)
All I am saying is, don’t count yourself out because it’s easier than counting yourself in. Believe in the faith that God has given you. It won’t steer you wrong. Place God and faith back in your heart and allow them to lead you to the places you belong. No matter what you’re facing… God is all you need AND you’ll find the answer in Him and His word!