No, nawl, shoal ain’t, it can’t be about me! I’m talking about this Christian journey. See, if it was all about me then I would write a devotional every day to be admired by folks when the bible tells me in Matthew 6:1, “Beware of practicing your righteousness before other people in order to be seen by them, for then you will have no reward from your Father who is in heaven.” Yea, if it was all about me then I would find joy in bragging about myself but the bible says in James 4:16, “As it is, you boast in your arrogance. All such boasting is evil.” Baby, if it was all about me, I’d place junk in your joy so your journey is jumbled, mix misery in your miracles so you’ll miss your mark, test your testimony with temptations so you tarry there, weaken your witnessing so that you’re weep and be weary instead of willingly work, put pain in your praise so that you get no peace, add bitterness to your blood so that you’re bound instead of blessed, feed your fear so that you forget about faith and fail instead of flourish, be foolish instead of fierce and a follower instead of favored. Oh, if it was all about me, I’d push you when you lean instead of propping you up, I’d let you stay down instead of picking you up, I’d laugh when you ask instead of trying to help, I’d be happy about your tears instead of wiping them away, I’d dance when you grieve instead of being there for you, I’d rejoice in your storm instead of holding a umbrella over your head and I’ll shout during your battle instead of helping you fight! If it was all about me. However, Nonetheless, Yet; I’m so glad that it’s not about me but it’s about the God in me because when I am nothing but a filthy rag God still finds me good enough to wipe with! When my legs feel like they can’t go on, I walk without stumbling! When my eyes are filled with tears, I can still see through my trouble! When my heart is hurting, it still has room to love! When my hands are tired from working, I still have strength to clap! When my mind is filled with mess, God cleans it out and gives me a message. When I feel like I am not worthy, God gives me work to do. When it seems like I’m not going anywhere, God opens up a new door. When it seems like pity is taking over, God gives me a praise for the things He’s already done. When I get to be too selfish, God gives me back all the things I haven’t even thanked Him for. When it seems like no one is listening, God gives me a platform to speak. When it seems like trouble is winning, God gives me a piece of the Trinity (that’s the Father, the Son and the Holy Spirit) to usher me on through. When it seems like my obstacle is too big to go over or around, God gives me space right where I am to overcome it.
I better leave this alone but I feel a shaking in my spirit which means some chains of selfishness will be broken just by reading this. I feel a moving in spirit which means some changes will be made in somebody’s life today. I feel a pressing in my spirit which means some spitefulness, malice, meanness and hate will be pressed down not to be seen again just by reading this. Yea, it’s not about me for the bible tells me in Ephesians 2:8-10, “For by grace are you saved through faith; and that not of yourselves: it is the gift of God: Not of works, lest any man should boast. For we are his workmanship, created in Christ Jesus for good works which God prepared beforehand, that we should walk in them.”