Daily Devotional – 5/26/17 “Go back!”

In order to effectively heal, you sometimes have to go back to the place of hurt. No, I don’t mean physically but mentally. See, you’ve become good at covering your pain for the world but when you get home at night, in the car by yourself, in the bathroom stall or even those times you zone out; you feel like you’re about to lose your mind. And that’s because silently you are. You want to know why you pop off, why it doesn’t take much to make you angry and why you are quick to walk away? It’s because you’ve been hurt beloved and have yet to heal. Yeah, you got away from the abusive spouse but you still live like you haven’t because you play it over and over, trying to understand why he/she started hitting you in the first place. Go back, not to find out but to forgive. You overcame alcoholism but it’s a daily fight because you haven’t dealt with the reason you started drinking. Go back and forgive. You smile when you tell folk about being molested but inwardly you’re cringing because you still carry hurt for the person who took your innocence. Go back and forgive. You testify of how you were once a crack addicted, street walker but you don’t tell them about the urges that’s waking you up because you’re still dealing with the voices in your head. Go back, heal and forgive. 

What happened is, you removed the stitches too soon. You got up and started moving around before it was time. You tried to stand on the brokenness but it wasn’t time. And now you find yourself in a place of needing to heal, all over again. Don’t you know removing stitches from a wound that hasn’t healed can cause you all kinds of problems? It can cause the wound to reopen, infection to set in and more pain like you wouldn’t believe. And now, you have to go through surgery again. You have to be put to sleep again. You have to be opened up again. And you have to be stitched up all over again. But this time, this time, push through until you’ve healed. Stop telling folk your testimony when God has yet to release you to do it. Stop showing folk your scar when God hasn’t told you too. 

You still need time to heal. Go back! 

“Heal me, O Lord, and I shall be healed; save me, and I shall be saved, for you are my praise.” – Jeremiah 17:14

Daily Devotional – 5/24/17 “God’s staffing agency!”

Sometimes you will be placed into a position, a community, a worship place, a relationship or even on a job to be used as a reminder that God is still God. Look, God will place a pastor into a position to get his/her feelings hurt daily only for him/her to leave with a smile and more than he/she came with. God will place you on a job, in the midst of hellish folk and you will show up every day smiling while your salary increases year after year. God will send you back to school without a clue how tuition is going to be paid just to show somebody, who is secretly watching you, that He is a wonder worker. God will allow you to survive stage 4 cancer, 20% kidney function, high blood pressure, tumors, stroke and heart attacks because of somebody who is battling with not believing He can heal. God will connect you to some folk publicly, who don’t even like you, simply because they prayed privately for your downfall. Beloved, God will send you an invitation to a closed event because somebody whispered, you don’t belong there.

God has a way of making your enemy shame before you. Those same ones who tried to curse your gift will be the one paying double your fee. The one who told you, you would never preach in “their” pulpit will be the one calling on you to pray them out of the enemy’s hands. The ones who said you would never get approved for the house will be the ones asking you for advice on how they can get one too. The ones who said you’d never make it out the ghetto, will be the very one using you for a reference. That same girl who left because you could only afford to fix cars in the backyard, opened the door for your wife who wrote the plan for your new business. That dude that left when you gained a little weight, will be the one calling when he sees your Facebook status change from “it’s complicated” to “in a relationship with.” Those who counted you out will be the very ones texting “hey” when they see surviving. This is why you cannot downplay where you are, at this moment. Yes, I know you are tired of being in this place and it seems like no matter what you do, you can’t move but trust God’s placement. If your prayers are plentiful, your devotion is dedicated, your service is steadfast, your fasting is faithful and your worship is whole; God will do what He promises. For His word says in Isaiah 41:10, “I have called you back from the ends of the earth, saying, ‘You are my servant.’ For I have chosen you and will not throw you away. Don’t be afraid, for I am with you. Don’t be discouraged, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you. I will hold you up with my victorious right hand.”